10 Questions for You

OOOH OOOH I LIKE QUESTIONS. I hope someone actually reads this xD

Where do you feel: at one with the environment/a sense of belonging?



On the beach. I have this fantasy that I'm secretly a mermaid or something, so I feel like I belong there. I'm so interested in ocean ecosystems and the secrets of the deep ;3. I love the salt in my hair and the taste of grilled oysters topped with parmesan cheese and a bit of lemon!

How do you choose your friends and how do you behave around them?


I don't really choose my friends as much as a magnetism pulls me towards them. Some people I just bond to, and we become friends. I'm usually the sullen one if my friend is an extroverted sort, and the excited, active one if my friend is an introvert. I try to take care of my friends and make them happy by appealing to their very specific tastes and interests, to celebrate them for being them.  


What have you had long conversations about? What are your interests? Why?


Oh, goodness, let me try and remember. Politics is a big one, as well as sociological theory. Social Justice. I am not a fan of people who say that you shouldn't ever talk about religion and politics in polite company because otherwise what else is there to even talk about? Let's talk about important things. Let's shake up our individual perspectives and biases. People who get offended simply because you hold a different opinion than they do are rather stunted in my view. People who are afraid to question their views are the ones that need to be smacked over the head with other perspectives the most, and I'll do that until they either hate me or open their mind. Yeah, I'm kind of a devil's advocate, but only because to be truly authentic someone needs to know why they truly believe something and the only way to do that is for them to question everything and see if they still wind up at the same result.

Interests? Video games, cooking, gardening, reading random articles on the internet all day everyday, sometimes 6 at a time. I like cooking because it lets me experiment and create, kind of like science but I get to eat it. Gardening is similar. All these things let me express my creativity and stimulate my mind. The articles...well go back to that perspectives thing, also I like to know what's going on. I always have this need to constantly fill my mind with new things. 


What has made you cry? What has made you smile? Why?


I cried when I discovered someone was cheating on me. Betrayal makes me cry, even if they have good reasons. Bullying. People hurting animals, the helpless and the downtrodden...I can't stand it. I remember the first time I saw someone kill an animal for funsies....I cried and cried and almost had a panic attack imagining the fear and pain of that poor animal. I couldn't breathe. I felt this horrible urgency to help this animal and I couldn't and it was destroying me, so all I could do is cry.

People thinking of me makes me smile. Like, remembering personal things about me, understanding me for who I am. I love seeing random acts of kindness. My daughter makes me smile, she's goofy and cute. People being authentic and weird and not being afraid of what people think about them for it (you know, the cool kind, not the "I'm incredibly dysfunctional and anyone that doesn't like it can just step off" kind of "not caring about what people think". Because that's just cringey and immature.)


Books or films you liked? Recently read/watched or otherwise. Examples welcome.


House of Leaves, Mark Z Danielewski
the movie "Titanic"
Lots, Lots more but my mind is blank right now! Mostly psychological thrillers, things with multiple hidden meanings and layers to it, with psychological elements. Sad things, dark movies and games. Horror, but not the cheesy gorey kind. Detective mysteries. Love stories!


How do you feel about romance/sex? What qualities do you want in a partner?


For being as liberal as I am, I'm rather conservative about sex, preferring to wait for marriage but I don't judge those that don't choose that for themselves. I don't like dating, either, it's awkward. I just kind of fall in love with people and romance happens. Qualities I'd want in a partner - loyalty, kindness, empathy, intelligence, open mindedness and a calm temperament, as well as a spirit for adventure.



How do you behave around strangers?


If I get the vibe that they're friendly and not stuck up, I'll smile and ask how they're doing! It's interesting, people come to me a lot to ask me for help, and I gladly help them. I find striking random conversations with people is nice because it gives me even more unique perspectives to draw from.



In what areas of your life would you like help?


Not being so socially awkward, I come off as anxious and weird as hell. I'm permanently the socially awkward penguin meme mixed with the paranoid parrot.











Describe your relationship to society. How do you see people as a whole? What do you consider a prevalent social problem? Name one.



I think society is sad, because people are all different and special but spend their entire lives trying be the same. I understand conformity is necessary at times, but when people deliberately try and be like each other and then turn against those that are different...I just don't understand. I think nationalism, patriotism, and rudeness are real problems in society today. I don't like unfriendly people, and people who are pretentious or overly nonconformist or that think they're better than anyone else. People who deliberately hurt others or participate in shady shit.....honestly, everyone needs to simultaneously get over and embrace themselves.

What qualities do you most like and dislike in other people? What types do you get along with?

I guess I cleared that up above! I like people who are silly, friendly and goofy and like to heckle and laugh with me, but I also can't stand it when someone relies on these things too much. I have a friend that once decried my taste in movies and television by saying it was too depressing and sad, remarking "I like happy feel-good things" with a sneer. Well, princess, life isn't feel good and to truly understand the universe we must not be afraid to get serious, to explore the dark and disturbing and occult. Escapism is dumb, I don't like it when people try to escape any feeling or thought.


(Does any of this sound NeFi to you? Srsly.)

Why thank you! I thought I was a Si Fe for a long time and it never fit - I'm so glad I've found the RIGHT type now lol, I can stop being confused.

And yes! Making art with food is the best. Japanese cuisine embodies a lot of this, where the plate presentation and creativity behind the food is just as important as the taste. I like to take that mindset and apply it to all kinds of different foods.