Thoughts moving forward
Feb 24, 2017 14:40:50 GMT -5 by Auburn
Amsterdam, teatime, and 4 more like this
Post by Auburn on Feb 24, 2017 14:40:50 GMT -5
Heya guys, 
So I feel obliged to mention a few perspective tweaks I've had in the last year or two. Many of them having to do with my personal growth and understanding.
Over-ambition, naivete and blindness: I think I was overly ambitious in all of this, especially in terms of scope and scale. It took Isabel Myers a lifetime (30+ years) to bring even the MBTI to a reputable place, whereas I hoped to reach a higher place in the span of 2-3 years. I under-appreciated the magnitude of what she did, or what other models have done before. It's so very easy for Ti to find flaws in things, without automatically having the Pi+Je appreciation for what is involved in the creation of an imperfect but useful model.
The things I initially disliked the MBTI for (i.e. for being a rather flat and straightforward behavioral narrative without a complex enough structure of inner dynamics) are qualities of it that were chosen intentionally, like the Big5. It's not technically a "wrong" decision, it's a different type of decision to focus on measurable/useful/firsthand information about how people's physical lives flow and order differently from different general attitudes of thinking.
In a way, I think I knew this. But Si+Fe are partly in my unconscious, as I'm coming to realize, and such matters are very depreciated in me. What it means to be a non-fully-conscious being is to feel an incredible weight in utilizing unconscious processes (Si especially, for me), or just not being able to use them. To my intuitive mind, 'soaring beyond' the logistics and semantics was more engaging and illuminating. But what seems like soaring beyond to me is 'glossing over' for others.
Grinding through the details of something and having to give a static, anchored (Si) explanation for every Ne intuition and observation I see in visual reading is a bit like eating glass. Hence my avoidance of finishing things!
There's an INTP stereotype fer ya. In the end I have acted quite to the letter of the INTP stereotype by being a theory-building, real-world-detached, open-ended speculator that struggles deeply with anchoring ideas to specifics and moving in the logistical world gracefully. 
But I have to chuckle at this, because that very same theoretical model predicts it. lol Putting this terrible pity party aside... the adult thing to do is to recalibrate expectations. Maybe that can allow for meaningful alteration in course.
But just a few obvious ones right off the bat:
It's a bit disheartening to realize CT is so far away from "hitting the streets", even though I see it so clearly as real already. But this idea came to me at age 21, so maybe it's obvious that I need(ed) to grow more personally, and in my own education/abilities before I can make something of this caliber shine in society. Fortunately it's still not too late and I have decades of life ahead of me to work through the problem.
So I feel obliged to mention a few perspective tweaks I've had in the last year or two. Many of them having to do with my personal growth and understanding.
Over-ambition, naivete and blindness: I think I was overly ambitious in all of this, especially in terms of scope and scale. It took Isabel Myers a lifetime (30+ years) to bring even the MBTI to a reputable place, whereas I hoped to reach a higher place in the span of 2-3 years. I under-appreciated the magnitude of what she did, or what other models have done before. It's so very easy for Ti to find flaws in things, without automatically having the Pi+Je appreciation for what is involved in the creation of an imperfect but useful model.
The things I initially disliked the MBTI for (i.e. for being a rather flat and straightforward behavioral narrative without a complex enough structure of inner dynamics) are qualities of it that were chosen intentionally, like the Big5. It's not technically a "wrong" decision, it's a different type of decision to focus on measurable/useful/firsthand information about how people's physical lives flow and order differently from different general attitudes of thinking.
~~~
In a way, I think I knew this. But Si+Fe are partly in my unconscious, as I'm coming to realize, and such matters are very depreciated in me. What it means to be a non-fully-conscious being is to feel an incredible weight in utilizing unconscious processes (Si especially, for me), or just not being able to use them. To my intuitive mind, 'soaring beyond' the logistics and semantics was more engaging and illuminating. But what seems like soaring beyond to me is 'glossing over' for others.
Grinding through the details of something and having to give a static, anchored (Si) explanation for every Ne intuition and observation I see in visual reading is a bit like eating glass. Hence my avoidance of finishing things!
There's an INTP stereotype fer ya. In the end I have acted quite to the letter of the INTP stereotype by being a theory-building, real-world-detached, open-ended speculator that struggles deeply with anchoring ideas to specifics and moving in the logistical world gracefully. 
But I have to chuckle at this, because that very same theoretical model predicts it. lol Putting this terrible pity party aside... the adult thing to do is to recalibrate expectations. Maybe that can allow for meaningful alteration in course.
But just a few obvious ones right off the bat:
- If I wanna make a truly global impact with CT, I need to be prepared for it to take a life-long effort, or at least a decade or more of dedication and research before seeing the final results.
- I need to seriously research every relevant piece of literature and study on the Typology topic, to understand where academia is at right now. And to read through all of Myer's works, Harold Grant, Lenore Thompson, Beebes, etc. Basically I need to be a history-buff on typology to understand where "the situation" is.
- I need to streamline things far more. Starting with the CTVC of course, but from the CTVC I need to be able to make fully timestamped breakdowns of every sample in the database, and aggregate the results into clear cut statistics of how much of each signal the sample demonstrates. And extract from this meaningful information.
- From the above mentioned timestamping (which will allow a case-by-case percentage of similarity comparison (i.e. so-and-so are 95% similar in vultology; and that's a value that can be definitively measured by signal tallying)) I need to draw N-value statistics about their other lifestyle choices, demographics, etc. So I can confirm or deny things like whether so-and-so correlation above 80% is linked to things like conservativism, etc.
- To do that, I need to take more than just a few classes on statistics, and a psychology degree while I'm at it!
It's a bit disheartening to realize CT is so far away from "hitting the streets", even though I see it so clearly as real already. But this idea came to me at age 21, so maybe it's obvious that I need(ed) to grow more personally, and in my own education/abilities before I can make something of this caliber shine in society. Fortunately it's still not too late and I have decades of life ahead of me to work through the problem.
