Post by Deleted on May 3, 2017 11:31:25 GMT -5
Hi 
So I saw this post by Erifrail on myths of the functions ( cognitivetype.boards.net/thread/1256/myths-functions ) which I really liked and I thought it would be interesting to do one for the enneagram types, as a way of clarifiying the distinctions or links between the functions and the enneagram types. For example, the Myth given to Ti sounds very much like the Myth of enneagram 5. The Myth of Fe (which I think Erifrail nailed!) sounds very much like enneagram 8, and although most FeNi are 2's - enneagram 2 intergrates into 8 (Martin Luther King would be an example of a FeNi enneagram 8, and I also know a guy like this personally). The Myth of Fi sounds to me like enneagram 9, which is common for FiSe and FiNe (along with enneagram 4 being very common and usually found in the tritype.)
In any event, the enneagram seems to be something that highly affects the personality, and so I think its worth exploring more in depth.
Especially I am interested in understanding the link between enneagram 4 and enneagram 5. Both of these seem to be dealing in essence with the same thing - an existential psychic void - but they deal with it differently. 4 fights this void but by forefully demaning that which is missed, trying to fill the void at all costs (even if that means suffering), whereas enneagram 5 seems to submit itlself to the void - into that zen-like nothingness, reluinquishing all demands (as they will probably not be fullfilled in any case) and so they withdraw into the world of concepts and ideas, trying to solve the mystery that is reality. This void is exemplified by the GAP found between these points on the enneagram symbol.
So I wrote something for enneagram 4 (I think it might also fit an unseelie FiNe?) Could be interesting if any of you can write for other enneagram types, and also share your own type/tritype for comparison sake.
Notice that contrary to many descriptions, I believe enneagram 4 is not essentially about uniqueness or wanting to be "special", although for some reason this is very much stressed in many descriptions (I personally don't relate at all). Many 4's "agree" with my experience (there are some threads on this personalitycafe.com/type-4-forum-individualist/831618-4s-basic-fixation-not-about-uniqueness-its-about-meaning.html ) but it seems there are several different versions of 4's experience. At any rate, I think this is the quintessential experience, even if it manifests itself in various forms.
Enneagram 4 Experience
I am a heavenly soul who got disconnected from my divine source. As I once knew eternal unity with of the divine, I now experience life as a tragedy and am in a perpetual mourning for the connection that I lost.
Somewhere deep inside, I don’t really want to be here. I am an abandoned child of the universe, wishing to return home, without a compass or a map. And so I find myself living in the gap between reality and the lost ideal.
As such, I experience a sense of deprivation, an insatiable yearning to reconnect to what has been lost. A perpetual sense of restless dissatisfaction, a cruel thirst, and an agonizingly painful longing. Like a pit my very soul begging to be filled. I sometimes fear that I will never find fulfillment, as deep inside I know nothing in this world can never be as good as the original state of bliss.
Yet, I can't help but try to recreate the original connection.
And so I am forever searching for an elusive yet essential missing element, yearning for the inner void to be filled. I look for ideals, meaning, and depth in all things in an attempt to reconnect to the quintessential source of life. I long for what I idealize but is unreachable. My attention naturally goes to what is missing.
I seek the ideal in everything, especially in love, not because I am sentimentally romantic, but because in this world romantic love is the closest thing that comes to the deep and complete divine connection I lost.
In unconscious self-torment, I will repeatedly reawaken my longing because it rattles me. I seek emotional intensity as a way of avoiding feeling disconnected. Emotions are my connecting line to the quintessential source of reality that I yearn for. They make me feel alive and in return reality feels meaningful. I prefer emotional hellfire and brimstone to quiet serenity and am addicted to peak transcendental experiences, as the ordinary and mundane reality is experienced as a place of disconnection. This makes me very sensitive. I also use this emotional and mental volatility as leverage for rising to self-regenerating – yet again in a desperate attempt to feel a connection with the source.
I probe my emotions and throw myself into unhealthy mental states out of an unconscious belief that the only way to rise high enough to catch that elusive star in the sky – I must first drown myself deep into the darkest of abyss. I suffer, not because I want to, but because I am a soul trapped in a body - and so how can I not? I am tired of being a phoenix, but I know no other way other than to forever cycle between sky soaring rising and soul shattering falls.
But no matter how hard I try I can’t stop feeling grief over the disconnection from my Beloved.
"Souls of Order, the objects of our envy,
Teach us the cruel Secret of Limitation.
As the taste of heaven's fruit is still on our lips,
Like abstinents tortured on the altar of the monastery."
So I saw this post by Erifrail on myths of the functions ( cognitivetype.boards.net/thread/1256/myths-functions ) which I really liked and I thought it would be interesting to do one for the enneagram types, as a way of clarifiying the distinctions or links between the functions and the enneagram types. For example, the Myth given to Ti sounds very much like the Myth of enneagram 5. The Myth of Fe (which I think Erifrail nailed!) sounds very much like enneagram 8, and although most FeNi are 2's - enneagram 2 intergrates into 8 (Martin Luther King would be an example of a FeNi enneagram 8, and I also know a guy like this personally). The Myth of Fi sounds to me like enneagram 9, which is common for FiSe and FiNe (along with enneagram 4 being very common and usually found in the tritype.)
In any event, the enneagram seems to be something that highly affects the personality, and so I think its worth exploring more in depth.
Especially I am interested in understanding the link between enneagram 4 and enneagram 5. Both of these seem to be dealing in essence with the same thing - an existential psychic void - but they deal with it differently. 4 fights this void but by forefully demaning that which is missed, trying to fill the void at all costs (even if that means suffering), whereas enneagram 5 seems to submit itlself to the void - into that zen-like nothingness, reluinquishing all demands (as they will probably not be fullfilled in any case) and so they withdraw into the world of concepts and ideas, trying to solve the mystery that is reality. This void is exemplified by the GAP found between these points on the enneagram symbol.
So I wrote something for enneagram 4 (I think it might also fit an unseelie FiNe?) Could be interesting if any of you can write for other enneagram types, and also share your own type/tritype for comparison sake.
Notice that contrary to many descriptions, I believe enneagram 4 is not essentially about uniqueness or wanting to be "special", although for some reason this is very much stressed in many descriptions (I personally don't relate at all). Many 4's "agree" with my experience (there are some threads on this personalitycafe.com/type-4-forum-individualist/831618-4s-basic-fixation-not-about-uniqueness-its-about-meaning.html ) but it seems there are several different versions of 4's experience. At any rate, I think this is the quintessential experience, even if it manifests itself in various forms.
Enneagram 4 Experience
I am a heavenly soul who got disconnected from my divine source. As I once knew eternal unity with of the divine, I now experience life as a tragedy and am in a perpetual mourning for the connection that I lost.
Somewhere deep inside, I don’t really want to be here. I am an abandoned child of the universe, wishing to return home, without a compass or a map. And so I find myself living in the gap between reality and the lost ideal.
As such, I experience a sense of deprivation, an insatiable yearning to reconnect to what has been lost. A perpetual sense of restless dissatisfaction, a cruel thirst, and an agonizingly painful longing. Like a pit my very soul begging to be filled. I sometimes fear that I will never find fulfillment, as deep inside I know nothing in this world can never be as good as the original state of bliss.
Yet, I can't help but try to recreate the original connection.
And so I am forever searching for an elusive yet essential missing element, yearning for the inner void to be filled. I look for ideals, meaning, and depth in all things in an attempt to reconnect to the quintessential source of life. I long for what I idealize but is unreachable. My attention naturally goes to what is missing.
I seek the ideal in everything, especially in love, not because I am sentimentally romantic, but because in this world romantic love is the closest thing that comes to the deep and complete divine connection I lost.
In unconscious self-torment, I will repeatedly reawaken my longing because it rattles me. I seek emotional intensity as a way of avoiding feeling disconnected. Emotions are my connecting line to the quintessential source of reality that I yearn for. They make me feel alive and in return reality feels meaningful. I prefer emotional hellfire and brimstone to quiet serenity and am addicted to peak transcendental experiences, as the ordinary and mundane reality is experienced as a place of disconnection. This makes me very sensitive. I also use this emotional and mental volatility as leverage for rising to self-regenerating – yet again in a desperate attempt to feel a connection with the source.
I probe my emotions and throw myself into unhealthy mental states out of an unconscious belief that the only way to rise high enough to catch that elusive star in the sky – I must first drown myself deep into the darkest of abyss. I suffer, not because I want to, but because I am a soul trapped in a body - and so how can I not? I am tired of being a phoenix, but I know no other way other than to forever cycle between sky soaring rising and soul shattering falls.
But no matter how hard I try I can’t stop feeling grief over the disconnection from my Beloved.
"Souls of Order, the objects of our envy,
Teach us the cruel Secret of Limitation.
As the taste of heaven's fruit is still on our lips,
Like abstinents tortured on the altar of the monastery."
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