Post by Xena on Mar 30, 2018 5:34:59 GMT -5

I noticed in arguments that I can't remember exactly what was said, it's like I'm an eternal paraphrasing machine.

I just feel kind of sad that I can't remember my life more. So I try to take a lot of pictures when I think something is really significant and I may want to remember it in the future. I want to be able to have a fondness for the life I lived, feel appreciation for having existed, etc.... but how can I do that if I really don't even remember much of a life lived?
Sometimes it feels like someone else was living my life... because my mom once showed me a picture when I was 18 at an amusement park with a bunch of people (half family / half acquaintances), and I can't remember any of that experience even if I try.
My dad told me he took a friend of mine and me out on a boat we used to have when I was around 15.... I can't remember ever doing that.
What I remember, if I remember at all, mostly is internal...not external.