drips down like bricks from her crumbling foundation
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this video represents to me Ji seeking for meaning, and not finding it. encountering instead chaos, a loss of self and of what one truly wants ("i don't know what more to ask for") after one's principle desire is broken ("i was given just one wish")
Dashed idealism. Preoccupation. Blaming self for dark/impure thoughts. Wallowing in dissonance while at the same time longing to resolve it.
" I wish my thoughts were pure like the driven snow Like the heavens and the spring's virgin buds But they strangle me with their sin Fill me up with poison Black clouds have covered up the sun again
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You're a bad pain in my gut I want to spit you out Open up this wound again Let my blood flow red and thin Into the glistening Into the whiteness Into the melting snow of Minneapolis
I'm not sure if this guy, John Francis, is a high-Ji type (I wouldn't be too surprised if he's actually Je lead?), but his decision to stop riding in motorized vehicles and to stop speaking for 17 years seems very Ji to me.
Actually, the Jordan B. Peterson video made me think of this one, even though their stories are quite different. With Peterson, his Ti began playing devil's advocate toward everything he was saying, causing him to become more thoughtful and judicious about his speech. In this video John Francis says that he stopped speaking because he didn't like how argumentative and defensive he had become toward his environmental ideals. Initially, he resolved to stop speaking just for a day, then for a year, but it eventually turned into many years. As with Peterson, it seems like the Ji is sort of reining in the Je. After initially resolving to stop speaking, it seems like Francis realizes that it's allowing his perceptive oscillation to develop in a way that it hadn't been able to before.
(He also describes being very active during his years of silence and doing some pretty remarkable things, so evidently the Je was still put to good use).