Post by Aqua on Sept 21, 2018 3:00:10 GMT -5
I've spoken a few times before about the impossibility of seeing my Pi (Si) in action, unlike Ne and Fi which are only not seen because they are so consciously associated with "me".
I'm less sure about this than I am my articulator but I've located something like a 'background' low-key mini-awareness that's always there behind my normal awareness-awareness. It's not the super I/self/ground-of-my-being thing of metaphysics/meditation at all.
It's kinda like just behind my ordinary awareness, like literally, standing just behind it, quiet and low-key. It's like a temporary memory almost but in an active sense, not the same thing as my stores of data at all which don't feel 'alive' or conscious in any sense: they just are. This low-powered background awareness is, again, JUST behind my ordinary alertness. It holds my different thoughts while I move around different subjects without forgetting them or putting them away completely in the memory/data store (and away from my present awareness completely). It's like a continuous awareness but not as continuous as my memory, you know? It's just more continuous than my 'alertness', steadier than my attention, I suppose, It doesn't forget the present movements of my attention. It's what allows me to multitask, I think. Like a special 'bag-holder'
But not charged, like really, really low-key. A bit like RAM. That's why I'm not so sure if it's the Pi. If it's the Pi then YAY! Super. That'd be four for four, located and marked! 
EDIT! I've thought about it some more and actually what I think it is, is attention too! More quiet, low-powered and more continuous. Yep! That's what it is. That's why it feels more like RAM than "memory". It's attention too, but in a different sense than the alertness (of my more visible ordinary awareness).
NB: In fact a thought just popped up right now that IF true, IF this is my long-lost Pi after all, then I think what happens is that my psyche distributes the libido between the two mostly to the frontal awareness (alertness) to the detriment of this background awareness and that this is what make me Ne rather than Si! Because it's very very low powered. Like minimal power to keep things running.
I'm less sure about this than I am my articulator but I've located something like a 'background' low-key mini-awareness that's always there behind my normal awareness-awareness. It's not the super I/self/ground-of-my-being thing of metaphysics/meditation at all.
It's kinda like just behind my ordinary awareness, like literally, standing just behind it, quiet and low-key. It's like a temporary memory almost but in an active sense, not the same thing as my stores of data at all which don't feel 'alive' or conscious in any sense: they just are. This low-powered background awareness is, again, JUST behind my ordinary alertness. It holds my different thoughts while I move around different subjects without forgetting them or putting them away completely in the memory/data store (and away from my present awareness completely). It's like a continuous awareness but not as continuous as my memory, you know? It's just more continuous than my 'alertness', steadier than my attention, I suppose, It doesn't forget the present movements of my attention. It's what allows me to multitask, I think. Like a special 'bag-holder'
But not charged, like really, really low-key. A bit like RAM. That's why I'm not so sure if it's the Pi. If it's the Pi then YAY! Super. That'd be four for four, located and marked! 
EDIT! I've thought about it some more and actually what I think it is, is attention too! More quiet, low-powered and more continuous. Yep! That's what it is. That's why it feels more like RAM than "memory". It's attention too, but in a different sense than the alertness (of my more visible ordinary awareness).
NB: In fact a thought just popped up right now that IF true, IF this is my long-lost Pi after all, then I think what happens is that my psyche distributes the libido between the two mostly to the frontal awareness (alertness) to the detriment of this background awareness and that this is what make me Ne rather than Si! Because it's very very low powered. Like minimal power to keep things running.