Post by Animal on Dec 3, 2018 9:28:55 GMT -5
Dec 3, 2018 4:02:00 GMT -5 Auburn said:
Hello Erica!This is a detailed analysis of your vultology & psychology according to CT, courtesy of Heresy. 
I'm sending it here in PM, but you are free to share it elsewhere if you'd like to make it public.
I took the liberty to upload your video to my youtube (but it's set to unlisted) to make the analysis possible. I can take it down at any time, just let me know.
Alright here goes!
Vultology
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The first thing we notice in the report is that you are very clearly a Gamma type, with high expression in both Se and Te, but plenty of Fi influence as well.
We can see your functions visible in GIFs such as:
6:31
^ Pe Bubbling Momentum + Pe Body Swaying + Te Snippiness
What we see here is the combined animation of Se/Pe and Te. The core framework of your body is fluid, as you move around and your head swivels in rhythm with your eyes (eye-centric). But added atop of this Pe Bubbling Energy is Te's accentuations, which come out in little head rattles and browraises.The joined effort of Pe+Je gives you a very animated, amped or manic quality.
8:50
^ P Ongoing Movements + Te Head Shake/Nod + P Subordinate Judgment + Fi Snarling
Here we see again how your body is engaged in an ongoing motion, with acute but brief Te bursts woven into this lucidity. The head swivels to the sides, often with a sassy head shake and Je push.
5:09
^ P Ongoing Movements + Je Gesticulations + Se Hyped Perk-Up
We see more of the same pattern here, and throughout the video, as well as moments where your eyes "pop-out" very intensely in a hyped perk-up (at the end of the GIF). Your eyes in particular stand out, carrying a lot of the weight and intensity of your character. They are intense, locked-on, sharp (Se). The are around the eyes is pulled taut, and the brow rises up at the outer edges.
And here we see a collage of you showing various Fi signals:
The majority of your signals concentrate around:
- Pe Bubbling Momentum
- Se Locked-On Eyes
- Se Intensity / Taut Eye-Area
- P Ongoing Movements
- Je Gesticulations
- Te Head Shakes/Nods (Subordinate Judgment)
- Fi Snarling
- Fi Resting Tension
- Fi Asymmetrical Mouth
Altogether, this means you are an SeFi l-l- Unseelie Female, at the visual level but also very much at the psychological level which I'll be going into below:
Psychology
I would like to start the psychological evaluation with a few quotes from the video itself:
"It's red, it's the blood room. And I've always had my music room with red tinge. I start getting dramatic, and the piano drives me to work out and the workout drives me to the piano. It's a whole-soul thing.
This is how I've handled my wardrobe; my self-expression. So back then I had blood pink hair. Why? Why not red? Because I wasn't human. I was a distorted, lower vibration version of my real human self. Even my blood was blue, or pink. So my hair was sometimes blue with pink streaks. 'Cause I bleed blue, like a reptile. And my love was pink, it was about seduction and sex and being admired. It was not about bleeding; being vulnerable. So in my art I was naked, covered in scratches. Shaped like the symbols that I created myself about my soul. And the torture I was going through."
Fi: Morbidity & Macabre
More than anyone, they may become painfully aware of how their life stress, disenchantment and bitterness has corrupted their heart into a thrashing, injured, disfigured life-form. Like seelie Fi, they intrinsically understand humanity to be animal in nature and when injuries have distorted their hearts, they will view themselves as a certain kind of monster –one that is wretched, desperate and irredeemable. But not only them, unseelie Fi peers into the depths of our human carnality and finds every grotesquerie imaginable. And they will often choose to embody this into artforms through the use of morbidity and macabre. The art of the unseelie Fi may be deeply offensive, shocking, explicit and saturated with horror themes as Fi seeks to paint as undiluted an image as possible of what they sense constitutes the uncensored reality of being. Often disturbingly sexual, frightening and taboo — Fi shies not away from any content matter; wanting to capture pain, sorrow, heartbreak, hopelessness and every human experience in as true a form as can exist. Bizarre as it may seem, in this act the unseelie Fi is fulfilling their original mission of providing a transparent lens into the human soul. All that we shun and repress becomes the content matter for unseelie Fi’s elucidation.
More than anyone, they may become painfully aware of how their life stress, disenchantment and bitterness has corrupted their heart into a thrashing, injured, disfigured life-form. Like seelie Fi, they intrinsically understand humanity to be animal in nature and when injuries have distorted their hearts, they will view themselves as a certain kind of monster –one that is wretched, desperate and irredeemable. But not only them, unseelie Fi peers into the depths of our human carnality and finds every grotesquerie imaginable. And they will often choose to embody this into artforms through the use of morbidity and macabre. The art of the unseelie Fi may be deeply offensive, shocking, explicit and saturated with horror themes as Fi seeks to paint as undiluted an image as possible of what they sense constitutes the uncensored reality of being. Often disturbingly sexual, frightening and taboo — Fi shies not away from any content matter; wanting to capture pain, sorrow, heartbreak, hopelessness and every human experience in as true a form as can exist. Bizarre as it may seem, in this act the unseelie Fi is fulfilling their original mission of providing a transparent lens into the human soul. All that we shun and repress becomes the content matter for unseelie Fi’s elucidation.
"And men worshiped me. I was known as a conqueror and a heart-breaker. I could f**k and I could seduce, and I could conquer but I couldn't love. And men fell at my feet; women too. I had so many fans, so many people in love with me. People writing albums about me. People worshiping my f**ked up brokenness to the skies. I was an inspiration."
This part relates to Gamma types and their connection to royalty. Taking from the Gamma profile:
Gamma Energy:
Auras: Chic, Royal, Erotic
The gamma types have an energy that is simultaneously independent but pronounced or emotionally highlighted. When Se and Fi are the favored functions, the gamma will have the feeling of deep reds and violets. Added to this, there is a polish to their face and energy which gives them poise and in some cases sensuality. Unlike the Betas, this polish doesn’t come from suave presentations or timely articulation. It instead emerges from their emotional independence, giving them a somewhat self-contained and aloof presence. Whether the gamma type is aiming to elicit this sensuality intentionally or not, a level of erotic radiation will emanate from them unbidden. This happens due to their continually seeping Fi energy, which is visible on their face in a very honest and undiluted way. Gammas may feel simultaneously emotionally present, obvious and exhibited, while being private, shielded and very selective – like a beautiful rose kept behind a glass container.
As a result of this aura of forbidden beauty, gamma types may have an air of royalty about them; that of a prince or princess. To the degree that they keep themselves private and emotionally suspended from the world, they will inadvertently create a social dynamic where their emotional openness and involvement with others represents a type of privilege.
Auras: Chic, Royal, Erotic
The gamma types have an energy that is simultaneously independent but pronounced or emotionally highlighted. When Se and Fi are the favored functions, the gamma will have the feeling of deep reds and violets. Added to this, there is a polish to their face and energy which gives them poise and in some cases sensuality. Unlike the Betas, this polish doesn’t come from suave presentations or timely articulation. It instead emerges from their emotional independence, giving them a somewhat self-contained and aloof presence. Whether the gamma type is aiming to elicit this sensuality intentionally or not, a level of erotic radiation will emanate from them unbidden. This happens due to their continually seeping Fi energy, which is visible on their face in a very honest and undiluted way. Gammas may feel simultaneously emotionally present, obvious and exhibited, while being private, shielded and very selective – like a beautiful rose kept behind a glass container.
As a result of this aura of forbidden beauty, gamma types may have an air of royalty about them; that of a prince or princess. To the degree that they keep themselves private and emotionally suspended from the world, they will inadvertently create a social dynamic where their emotional openness and involvement with others represents a type of privilege.
Lastly, this was written in the book of the FiSe's in the book but I'm finding it applies just as well to Se+Fi and Gamma more generally:
The FiSe type, along with the TeNi type, share the curious phenomenon of being simultaneously the clearest expressions of the human emotional register, while also often being quite unaware of the magnitude or nature of their own expressions. (...) We see examples of this subtype in musicians such as FiSe Enya and Björk, who touch deeply on themes of the heart through sensational videography, eccentric attire, and heart-opening lyrics delivered through a delicate, yet strong, spritelike voice.
Björk offers her listeners a window into the potentialities of humanity by the creation of songs emerging from unconscious, or commonly ignored, emotional terrain. We see the polar, and more devious, reflection of Björk in TeNi Madonna, who captures another dimension [sexual, dark] of this function combination.
Types with these four functions, sometimes referred to as gamma types, have an internal fervor to give tactile form to the private aesthetic of their Fi, which expresses itself most obviously in the transformation of their self-image. The late FiSe Michael Jackson presents another fascinating case of delicate independence, childish eccentricity and controversial appearance.
Björk offers her listeners a window into the potentialities of humanity by the creation of songs emerging from unconscious, or commonly ignored, emotional terrain. We see the polar, and more devious, reflection of Björk in TeNi Madonna, who captures another dimension [sexual, dark] of this function combination.
Types with these four functions, sometimes referred to as gamma types, have an internal fervor to give tactile form to the private aesthetic of their Fi, which expresses itself most obviously in the transformation of their self-image. The late FiSe Michael Jackson presents another fascinating case of delicate independence, childish eccentricity and controversial appearance.
The combination of Se+Fi, when fully unhinged, offers an artistic/creative (Pe) expression and embodiment of the raw, unfiltered reality of the carnal soul (Fi). We see this in audacious/daring/controversial Fi performers like Lady Gaga, Madonna, Kate Bush, Bjork and Marilyn Manson. Gammas also have exhibitionist tendencies, which go hand in hand with Fi's Idiosyncrasy & Self-Expression. Erica describes herself as a performer and I think that is right, in the most true sense. She is an embodiment of her essence, and human essence more generally, made visible for others to witness.
This is all distinctly different from Fe. If I had to put the two in a side-by-side comparison, the qualia contrast becomes quite clear, I think. Here is what I see when I compare what Erica is saying (in her Se+Fi expressions) with the general mindset and focus of Fe+Ni.
This is all distinctly different from Fe. If I had to put the two in a side-by-side comparison, the qualia contrast becomes quite clear, I think. Here is what I see when I compare what Erica is saying (in her Se+Fi expressions) with the general mindset and focus of Fe+Ni.
| Se+Fi (gamma unseelie) | Fe+Ni (beta directive) |
| Dramatic Performer Worshiped / Idolized / Royal Animal in nature Demonic Beast Artistic / Poetic Resisting conformity So carnal it's spiritual Rising to challenges Comfortable in what others term sin | Politics of the people Studying the "human condition" Tribalism / Collectivism Honorifics, Hierarchies Power Dynamics Pickup Artistry Suave / Swagger Heroic Conquests Messiah Savior |
There are some aspects that overlap, but in general the two energies are quite dissimilar. For Erica it's not really about the collective or social, it's about self-expression. It's not about the push-and-pull of persuading, altering and affecting societal opinions in some predetermined direction. It's about exhibiting, embodying and living unashamed. Whereas Fe+Ni tries to execute tact and grace, Se+Fi tries to evoke amplitude and contrast. Both Se+Fi and Fe+Ni are, in some sense, putting on a performance, but for SeFi the performance is that self-exhibition whereas for the FeNi their performance is meant to persuade and win over the political favor of others, making it more propagandic in nature. One is sharply evocative, the other is shepherding.
I hope this analysis presents a fuller picture of your type, and it's many dimensions. You're a fascinating example of your type, and I'm looking forward to your contributions to the forum and community! I really like the way you ended the video by mentioning that worshiping another person's dark suffering only makes it harder for them to feel like getting out of it. I had a dear friend who took his darkness too far, into suicide, so that message is very real to me. I'm glad you are focusing on your health and on integration. There is great(er?) beauty to be embodied in rising above it all, as well.
All the best,
- Auburn
